Once upon a time there was me........

There r very few times in life …….when u r quite…..alone with your own soul……..and then u realize that ur soul is no more with u……..or the soul is actually someone else……..not u. have u ever smiled a whole day long for actually no reason……..and yet u have felt like u want to cry your heart out…..and finish it once and for all. Have u felt as if…….its just the moment u r living and rest is unknown and uncertain………yet u r so sure about the moment that u want to spend ur whole life in that single moment. Have u ever felt that the person u r looking at is the most ordinary person u r looking at……..but u r so sure the person is the most unique and special in the whole world. Have u ever thought how does it feels like to have someone all to urself and yet u feel as if he is somewhere far far away from u. have u ever felt as if the time has got transformed in to a jet plane…….and yet felt like the time stands still when u look at someone. Have talked ur heart out to someone and yet felt as if some where some things are left unsaid. Have u ever tasted a sweet as bitter as reality yet u have loved the sweet becoz reality is all that u need right now??? Have u ever told someone about ur dark secrets yet talked abt them so casually as if just another talk. Have you ever felt at ease with someone with whom u can talk abt nothing under the sun……but yet felt as if the sun is so small to cover all topics.
Have you ever tried not to fall in love……….. yet yearned for some1 who wud make u fall in luv. And have u ever tried to hold a hand just for the sake of holding hand and yet u know its not holding……its linking a soul to urs.
All this and a thousand other questions haunt u everyday……then u feel as if the day is shorter than usual…….u need an extra 24 hour to take out time for yourself and ur happiness. But the world doesn’t allows u the liberty or the chance to fly in the sky with some feelings that u don’t understand and never want to understand…..but never want them to end and just go on and on and on……

Braking The Monotony

Life tries its best to trap us in cycle; you wake up in morning, read newspaper, go to office, check mails, get a cup of coffee and the work starts. Its a blessing if you have work which is interesting(challenging, as many people say; but I believe that more than work people you work with are challenging), the day ends, you go home, you get 2-3 hours of life and its 01.00 O'clock in midnight, you sleep as have to get up early in the morning, its a cycle a vicious cycle.

We all live a very usual life, a very similar life. I talk to people and I ask " whats up?" they reply "nothing", none of us have a story to tell. We don't have time for things we like to do or pretend liking to do. We plan too much and implement less; very often I get this feeling there is so much generality in my life that may be some time back some where in this world somebody might have lived a life which is same as mine or might be living a similar life; I might be just repeating what he did or somebody is doing or somebody will.

How do I break this monotony? How to get out of this cycle?

I will like to live a life which changes daily, I don't want to recognize the person I was yesterday.

I am asking too much and I am using too much 'I's which I really hate. Thinking this thing since a long time, it was decided that something will be done pretty soon which is going to change my life completely.

I want to live a new life... everyday. I want to tell a new story everyday!